They tell me I shouldn't pursue this notion of mine, that I should simply forget any and all thoughts of him and get on with my life, they tell me its a useless situation and ask me why I continue torturing myself and working hard to get his attention.

I wish I could tell them it's because I know him, because I've spent time with him and see a side of him no one else has. I wish I could tell them its because he wants this as much as I do, as badly as I do. I wish I could them exactly what they wanted to hear, but this is the thing; whatever it is I have with him is worth more than anything that happened before and I don't know why.